HMMM yeah im new to this and someone once told me that i write all my feelings out instead of saying it... i guess its true. Maybe i'll try this out. Im not sure who would want to read about my life and how gay it really is. Nothing exciting about it... thats what i say. Uhm? i guess whoever comes along and wants to read about my life, go ahead. So it's still summer and just one more month and will be back in school again. :O
So yes lets get to know me a little...
im shayna, birthday is a week away JULY28! im a Junior at NWCTA! Medical is the program im in, studying the medical field. I have big dreams and im planning to achieve them. is that good enough?
Guess What?
im very complicated at the moment, i am a big mess. I do have ALOT on my mind everyday from morning to night; I overthink things too. Well then everyday theirs a change for me, i think things differently and I dont say much when your around me. So half the things on my mind is unsaid. I do have 3 main bestfriends i talk to EVERYDAY! Those are the ones I TRUST; always&forever! I tell them everything thats on my mind even if i dont want to, they get it out.
Main thing is: summer!
wow arnt i confusing? from a little intro to a little fact about myself and NOW to the main point...
I thought summer was going to be the best this year for me but i also knew it was a change for me and i knew it would change things in my life A LITTLE. that "A LITTLE" went to ALOT CHANGE in my life! sadly my summer was supposed to be spent at home...hawaii? i decided not to. then i was supposed to spend summer in san diego, CA. i decided not to cause of this one person...didnt want to take any chances. Lastly im stuck in boring las vegas? people say their is alot to do in vegas! oh yeah? like what?! Im not a good planner with hangouts and chill days. I dont really like to go out much either. I mostly been spending my days at home with the family. I like it and dislike it at the same time. Staying home let me realize alot and really got me to think of EVERYTHING of my life... WHY? Life came at me all at once but we all have to grow up right? im scared, im worried, im confused, i want to figure it out before school starts. this is what i think about everyday.
So SUMMER2009, thank you! hah.
We all have to grow up and move on cause life does go on. With everything i've been through from my past... im scared to make mistakes. i dont want to live regrets and im not going to... its lessons learned! I have so much, too much, to think of. I cant be happy but make other people i care about to be happy. Wrong? yeah i know but its my life. I have to start focusing on my life and get things straight again... GROW UP RIGHT?! Doing what i love to do...VOLLEYBALL! Concentrating on that first. Family is coming up this week and cant wait to spend time with my cousin/little sister RENA. Bestfriend/Bestie D.Leoning is moving up here this weekend. Yay cant wait to see him again. Turning sixteen, whats so sweet about that? nothing much and nothing big. oh well! Daddy will be home soon. just one more week! i miss him so much everyday. Family to Volleyball is everything to me right now. hmmmmm thats all for today.
